litany of the weird

i grew up complaining to tatay “daw mabul og ko ah” every time he reminds me to
“magpakaubos, for in due time, yours is the heaven”
i wonder when will i ever understand him,
when will i ever believe in the power of “magpakaubos”
today was one of the days i have again doubt that “magpakaubos” theme
i was at the verge of losing grip of my only monggo-like pride!
like everyday, tho my pride is always as little as monggo seed.
Lord why do i feel this way?
biskan ano ko ka weight sang both sides,
why do i feel like i was so abused today?
like no drama, duh abuso nagid ni iya.
as in abuso nagid ni ya.
why do i have to feel this?
years passed is no joke to have You let me agwants this situation.
but i have no right to ever question Your way.
but..
today, i fell into feeling so unappreciated. i felt so mocked.
i felt super abused like i always help the way out of hell,
in good faith was that help
but it was unappreciated and more so mocked!!
this is the first time that my being “unappreciated” affect the hell in me.
growing up i inflict in me that
“indi n maka apekto sa akon kun wala may ma appreciate sa akon”
tho it is an “everyday” battle.
every “stare at my pimple” battle.
every “comment about my pimple” battle.
every “comment on my ability to perform house hold chores” battle.
every “wala ka naman nanglaba” battle.
but i have to rise above the battles for me to survive everyday.
i plea that this will be the last time i’ll ever let them affect me.
i plea too, that this will be the last time that my peace will ever be disturbed.
i have to move on from this hell.
i will move on. i will.
but before that, i have to accept that people even your bloodones
even if how much you help them, how much you do good to them
will never appreciate you the way wanted them to.
expectations will always destroy your mental state,
so i better refuse to expect. i will.
people will always deal with yah according to how much you’re worth.
but not all. so i’ll discern better
Lord thank you for letting me feel this
for in this, i realized that i needed not my self nor my pride,
that i needed to surrender everything unto you
all.

my confusions.
my pride.
my judgements.
my doubt.
because in you there’s an assurance that i’m appreciated.
that i’m better because im Your daughter.
this will be the last time ill ever feel this feeling
i will move on.
#gunicereacts

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Throwback: #OJTJokes

FuuunyScene sa MIS ka ISAT

Ay. Ay. Ay. Lemme blog about my own observation about things and scenes happening here in MIS/EDP Department of my beloved school where I’m currently having my OJT. ’twas every time there is an incoming first year applicant (IFY), I can’t help my self but laugh or sometimes burst into a ‘harakhak’ to some of their innocent mistakes: be it on the infos on the application forms or their gestures. But let me ask for your forgiveness if I found you or your gestures funny – please be not offended. HAHAHA

#FuuunyScene 1

Loud *Knock* *Knock* on the door. Wait for a minute. Loud *Knock* *Knock* on the door again. Heard whispering outside, “Way man tawo day.” -“Panuktok b liwat.” I would stand and have my way to the door and suddenly they would open it. Speak about #LateGuts. Ay maan. Haha.. Relate!

#FuuunyScene 2

Course Preferences (Select from List of Course Offered):

1st Preference: BS Mathematics

2nd Preference: BSED Major in Mathematics

3rd Preference: MA Mathematics

Notice the infos on the 3rd preference. Hahahaha.. That’s what you call #TingbanayKurso. Hahaha.. D man obvious nga favorite nya ang math. IFYs, please be informed that you only are allowed to take Bachelors Degree Courses, or sa simple nga pag describe, ang mga kurso lang nga ga umpisa sa mga ‘BS2’ mo lang na dapat sa inyo. Hahaha. d pwede laktaw. (Not unless, kun accelerated kw. lol)

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two years in the making. hahahaa miss this moment!

#NiceMindanao2016 #Part1

This trip is a planned surprise to our grandmas en grandpa in Mindanao, and an another surprise to the sissie, the amay en iloy, that this really pushed through amidst all constraints. We prayed that we can visit the oldies because tis been a couple year when we last saw them, and twill be a good feeling when we can personally see them. But we decided to go just a day before the departure. Bisan bayo wala kmi ka prepare. But because we prayed for this, so we went.

Basically i only brought 5 shirts, 5 shorts, 1 jacket, 1 pants and a skirt because we packed 4hrs before going at 8pm and because we wanted to travel light, coz you know, wala si amay nga ma bitbit kag wala man kmi inugbayad sa porter (LOL). After i fetched the sissie at her school at 9pm, she immediately packed her belongings and at 11pm we checked in at Iloilo Port. Sans dinner, we find our way to the terminal awaiting some surprises inside.

The whole port system is a mess. Passengers who came early had the privilege to sleep on the chairs – 3chairs each, also benefiting their bags a seat. So the late comers either enjoy standing or sit on the cold floors. We preferred the cold floor because the ferry will arrive at 3 am and its way too long to wait. So together we sat on the floor and rested our bags too, opened our dinner and wait for the ferry’s beep.

At exactly 3am, MV St. Therese of Child Jesus ferry departed Iloilo Port and its an eerie start of a voyage because of a low pressure. The waves are huge and unfortunately our designated beds are the top of a double deck – doubling the nausea. Di gid ya comportable mag sagi lakat kay da matumba ka sa ka balod. But its an enjoyable ride because of the many firsts the sissie and i is experiencing – *firstym to go to Mindanao together sans the parents *first over the sea travel together *firstym to budget our own money (and given that in travelling you should be ready for the unexpected expenses) *firstym to pack our bags this light (LOL!!) and *firstym to travel this far with limited balon nga food.

One of the things we agreed upon is to buy limited food pre-departure because we noticed on our past vacations nga indi man namon maubos sa byahe ang mga balon namon, gadugang lang sa bilitbiton. So in every stops we browse the stores for food that we like in that moment and should be consumed immediately. But I made sure i have enough of my coffee throughout our trip. Budlay na. Hahaha So heres some of our #terminalfoods: cup noodles and the free lunch the ferry is serving – rice + lumpiang shanghai in tomato sauce + strawberry crinkles.

Despite the apology of the ferry’s personnel that a possible delay of arrival at CDO Port, we arrived at 4:15pm, 45mins before the estimated 5pm arrival. I took a few shots of the port, at the ferry’s POV. Medyo gloomy gihapon ang CDO pag abot namon, pareho sang pag halin namon sa Iloilo.

The instruction of the experienced a.k.a. the parents “pag panaog sa barko, sakay dayon sa jeep pa Agura Terminal kag mag sakay Super 5 nga bus pa Malaybalay City (our first stop for this vacation.)” So we faithfully followed the instructions to avoid commotion back home.

So heres us bound to Malaybalay City aboard Super5 bus nga Super man ang aircon + ulan. Sa Iloilo mag ulan, kiber ang tugnaw, sa Mindanao ya, wala pa ulan, tugnaw na.

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A funny thing happened the moment we arrived at Malaybalay. The instruction was “Ate, a. hambalan mo ang conductor, ‘atbang Bethel Hospital’ kamo manaog. b. itext mo kuno kay Mama mo Bebing ang bus number kay bantayan kamo nila. c. i update nyo kami sang mga ginaagyan nyo”  So again, we faithfully followed all of those. But when we are gettin nearer, a text came from the tiya, that they are already in Sumpong. We have no idea what it is and where it is. She added, that instead of Bethel Hospital, we will get off the bus in Sumpong. We take no deal on the last instruction.

At 8pm, we confirmed that we are already at the heart of Malaybalay City, we became busy looking for landmarks that will lead us to Bethel Hospital. Mabudlay magtalang kay 1. indi kmi cebuano speaker 2. we don’t know the place 3. gaulan. Then the bus stopped at a certain bus stop, we thought that its only a normal bus stop, when suddenly a commotion is happening below. Its between the conductor and a woman, their conversation is inaudible.

Again, we take no deal on it but when someone shouted “NICE! GAY PALANAOG NA KAMO DA!” Nagla-aw kmi, we were like “Huh? may ano?! (avoiding getting paranoid of the news about mindanao, the terorism and all)” Ang iban pasahero nag balalikid kag nag tilindog gazing at us! Dungan singgit ni Gay, “Si Mama Bebing!” Dungan burakwit sang dala niya kag nana-og. Leaving me in my seat. In split second, i processed the whole thing, swallowed the rest of the ampao on my mouth, grabbed my bags and walked out while avoiding the confused gazed of the rest of the passenger. The other managed a smile while others laughed.

Pag abot sa dalom, ara na ang tiya kag ang pakaisa, ga bira bira kadlaw sa natabo. Makon mo gin sugat gd kmi iya sa babaw bus!

I therefore realized that Sumpong is a street in Malaybalay City. They decided to fetch us there because of the rain. Twill be hard kun didto kmi manaog sa Bethel Hospital kay malayo pa ang byahehon namon pakadto sa balay nila Mama.

A fun reunion and some catching ups happened in their house. Unfortunately, due to our tired senses we forgot to take even a single photo when we’re in Malaybalay City at our Mama Bebing’s blessed home.

Thanks again Mama Beng and Papa Tating for the warm welcome!

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This is only Day 1 and 2 of our #NiceMindanao2016 Adventures. I’ll post soon the rest of the vacation.

52nd Anniversary of God’s Wonderful Faithfulness

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Happiest Birthday to you dear Tatay.

Here’s a flashback story of how I’m soo much grateful of your presence in my life.

“Last night ga worry gd q kun paano q matapos ang 42 shirts ky kapoy2 si tatay sa pang masa sang semento.. Pero gi set up q gihapon ang mga shirts jus in case aga pa ka bugtaw si Amay.. then pag patak sang ala una sa kaagahon naka bugtaw sya natingala ngaa bugtaw pa aq… kag nag offer nga taposon na namon. Ahhhhh!!! Sya nagd ya!! Sya nagd ya ang pinaka martyr nga amay ever!! hahahaha Always be grateful to the Lord for him being my Tatay.
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So tungod di q ka agwanta sang ka responsable mo Tay, duh nahuya man aq nga hugs, kiss en greetings lang i.amot q sa bertday mo.. Hahaha dugangan q nlng sang kayk ah hahaha ay, lantawon q lang gli.. du way na q gli kwarta. hahaha hugs, kiss en greetings WITH MY PUREST LOVE nagd lng tay ha. hihihi
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Advance happiest birtdy Amay! Yow d best ever! tungod sina, budlay2 nagd ya makakilala sang kaangay sa imo. hahahay
Like I care about it, again hahaha

Like what I had been feeling that moment, I am very thankful for everything. Salamat sa tanan.. especially sa pag pa tubo sa amon sa pudir sang isa ka Diosnon nga panimalay. Salamat man sa paghatag sa aqn sang utod nga putot, law ay kag maitom sang sadto, pero gwapa kag mature sa Ginoo na subong. salamat man sa pag intyende sa aqn sa panahon nga dw waay aq sa tyakto nga pinsar. hehe

I will always be praying ang loving you till eternity. Love you Tatay, Happiest birthday to you my only Man, my happiness, my kaagaw kay nanay. hehehe

Ps. sorry sa aqn mga kakulangan. 🙂 thanks for loving me my Mirror.

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JESUS in my SALN

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Cutest and wonderful nga moment samtang ga fill up ako sang SALN q, kay yawan q panumdum sang i-butang q sa Assets q… kay wala man abi q pagkabutang nga may monetary values nga akon gd iya gd gastohan (wala man q silpon, bayo q puro ukay2 and gifts, shoes q puro ukay2 man kag hinatagan, donation/gift ang amon ref, tv, laptop, Globe Tattoo Broadband, dvd player kag thermos, iya ka church ang amon pinggan nga ang iban bilin pa sa wedding gifts sa kasal ni Amay kag Iloy, wala man kmi lote, ang amon gna tulogan, Parsonage – iya man ka church, ang amon mga bedsheets, habol kag kurtina puro white gift mag christmas kag relief goods pag Yolanda, ang amon bugas, blessings man. hahahaha)

..then I realized nga wala gd kmi ya gli kun i-hold up kmi.. hahahaha
and yet happy kmi ya sa sini nga sitwasyon..
I resolved to one thing nga worth ibutang sa SALN q – si JESUS
Maybe maham-ot sini ang iban, matingala or wala lang ni sa ila
pero sa amon ya, Jesus is worth more than the price of the Earth in the Universe situated in the Galaxy… is worth more than the accumulated Assets of all politicians, businessmen, freelancers, beggars and thieves, hold upper, kidnappers, etc in the world… is worth more than the values of all the diamonds, golds and swarovski crystals, Dongyan Wedding and all the riches in earth..
because JESUS IS EVERYTHING. FAITH IN HIM ALONE CAN SAVE US.. CAN SAVE YOU… CAN SAVE ME… from the wrath of hell which the love for money or riches can bring us there.

WBAAFC Keswick Conference 2014

(an uberlate entry that summarizes our WBAAFC Keswick Conference 2014 experience. Here’s my behind the event POV)

5months ago, my Amay was invited to speak  for the YPs at WBAAFC Keswick Conference 2014. After fervent prayer, he gladly accepted the invitation coz he wanted to speak to the young people at a conference where he accepted the Lord and committed his life to Him last 30 years ago in Bukidnon. He was overjoyed at the privilege given to him. He prepared for it, even costing countless sleepless nights, research here, read there and countless hours sitting at his study table.

December 21, 2014 came and he knew God had readied his heart to preach for God’s message (first out of 5) and here he is polishing it.

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First Session. Below, we prayed with the Speaker praising God for our safety and for His grace, guidance and wisdom for the whole duration of the conference.

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Below. We were seated at the back coz nahuya kmi mag pa.una. hehe Reunited with Ma’am Mia, Adin en Agot. Soo missed them!

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Sessions. By faith plus nothing equals salvation.

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Let Jesus be the anchor of your life.

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Please help us pray for the YPs who committed their souls to God for full time Ministry. May the commitment they made that night stayed in their hearts for God’s usability.

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What amazed us in this Keswick Conference was the format – Camp-ferencing! There are Basketball and Volleyball Tournaments and lots of parlor games enjoyed by the YPs and even by the Speaker and Pastors.

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Speaker’s Family Groufie

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Hahaha! My most unexpected part of the conference was when the Host called the Speaker’s Family to the stage with him to be given by a love gift too. Perti amon kahuya ni Sister pero we absolutely are happy and overjoyed to receive it. Thank you!

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My Malong. Thank you WBAAFC Committee!

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Much thanks to Ptr. Rene Balintongog (Wao FBC), the Host Pastor, Ptr. Mario Aguire, WBAAFC Director and other Pastors and Workers I can’t name further, for their warm welcome and for being good to us the whole conference time. Salamat man sa pag.invite sa amon Amay, kag kabay na bless gd kmo sa mga mensahe sang Ginoo. Especially thank you to the YPs who spared their time to attend the WBAAFC Keswick Conference. I’ll be praying for you all! God bless! 🙂

-WK

Linamada #9

Biskan Minilyon pa nga Yolanda…

by: NiceGay PLeving

 

Yolanda. Maanyag nga ngalan kon aton pamati-an

Kaangay sang paghinuni sang mga kapispisan

Daw ikaw gina ili-ili kun imo pamalandungan

Aton dayawon kay matahom ang Yolanda nga ngalan.

 

Apang sang nagligad nga tuig natagaan ini sang lain nga atensyon

Tungod nang-guba sang mga balay kag pang-anod sang mga pananom

Nagdangat sang sakit sa ulo kag tuman nga kunsomisyon

Sa mga tawo nga iya gin-labyan, sang mga panganod nag gu-om

 

Sang gin-anonsyo sang PAGASA ang Bagyong Yolanda

Kami wala gin-kulbaan ukon kami wala nag sala-sala

Kay abi namon ini ulan kag mahina nga hangin lamang

Apang ini gali makusog, nagsobra sa amon ginla-uman

 

Oh Bagyong Yolanda NGAA man?!

Kami imo gin pa-antos kag ginbaya-an

Sa tunga sining trahedya kag sirkumstansya…

Apang ini tanan gali, yara sa mga plano NIYA.

 

Amon na realisar nga ini tanan gintugot Niya,

Tungod may rason kag tinutuyo Sing-iya

Kay kita nga tawo dali mabalaka

Pamasul-basol kag pagduda ang upisyo ta.

 

Tabog nga mga atop, tumba nga mga kudal kag puno sang kahoy

Linapta sa palibot – sa kunsumisyon, abaga mo mahuy-hoy

Ilabi naguid ang aton simbahan, madugang imo panaghoy

Apang ini tanan, amon ginkabig nga bugay nga indi ma-asuy.

 

Wa-ay nadula sa Iya ang amon pagsalig

SIYA ang naghimuno sang grasya sa bilog nga tuig

Pagsuply sang kinahanglanon, pagka-on kag tubig

SIYA wa-ay nagpabaya, sa Iya ka-anakan padayon nga ga amlig

 

Gani kita nga adlaw-adlaw pa nga gaginhawa,

Indi mag untat, padayon pag-tutum pa guid sa IYA

SIYA yara biskan sa minilyon pa nga pag abot ni Yolanda.

Kita indi NIYA pagpabay-an, pagabantayan kag i-anguma.

 

Sa DIYOS LAMANG ang TANAN nga HIMAYA!!! Amen.